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Friday, October 16th, 2009
11:20 pm	x My LJ has a big black hole from fall '04 to January '06. I deleted it all, but I did save a backup in a LiveJournal archive file (.lja). I would now like to reinstate all those posts, or at least get them in a readable manner, but I don't remember what software I used. Damn. All the comments are there too. Reading through the binary file as best I can, I forgot how much we all commented on each other's blogs back in the day ("the day" being my last 2 years of college-ish, "we all" being mostly DSPs 2 years ahead of me). The reason I deleted it all? Girl problems I was having at the time, which probably only applied to 20% of the posts anyway. There's a lot of good history there. Especially B. Ross's response to one of my posts about needing a girlfriend..."Today, I assume the persona of a caveman..." Every time I look back at old blog posts, I think "wow, I sound different back then." It's always an interesting window into my previous self. So I should really write more. But I think there is also a place in my life for an actual private journal, stuff I wouldn't really want anyone to read. But how to keep it...old school style with an actual notebook/journal? Flat files on my laptop backed up somewhere? Some kind of private blogging software? Private, not-even-friends entries on LJ? Huh. In conclusion, my life is becoming alarmingly similar to my prediction in this post. Here I sit in front of my computer on a Friday night, enjoying a crisp Natty Light. Damn you social anxiety. I have been thinking about moving back to Boise. Seattle has kind of lost it's allure, and I do have a lot of good friends there. I have a decent enough amount of savings that I wouldn't mind not working for a while, and the bonus is that if I took those savings with me to Boise, they would actually last longer than living here without a job, given the cost of living difference. It would be fun to check out spring training down in Arizona next year. ( I want you to hit me as hard as you can.)
Tuesday, October 13th, 2009
1:20 pm	Ping.   ( I want you to hit me as hard as you can.)
Friday, September 11th, 2009
1:40 am	You know what really grinds my gears? AHHHHHHHHHH So I just loaded a 2.7M JPEG from Gmail in a Firefox tab. I then try to save the damn image into my home directory. And Firefox starts DOWNLOADING THE DAMN THING AGAIN FROM THE SERVER. IT'S ALREADY ON MY FUCKING HARD DRIVE SOMEWHERE, CAN YOU PLEASE JUST TRANSFER IT FOR ME. Okay. Breathe. This is so incredibly stupid I can barely think. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ( I want you to hit me as hard as you can.)
Wednesday, July 22nd, 2009
3:22 pm	Dilbert archives I just noticed yesterday that the archives on the dilbert.com website now go back all the way to the first strip in 1989. I think I tried this a few months ago, and the archives cut out somewhere in the 90s. It's pretty cool, considering that Scott Adams is probably losing money from people who might otherwise buy the collections. Of course, I'm sure he sleeps on a pile of money every night anyway. So I'm going to start reading through, from the first one forward. Long-time Dilbert fans will remember that the older strips focus more on Dilbert's home life, and include a lot more strips with Bob and Dawn the dinosaurs. I enjoyed this era as well as the early-office era. Recently (most of the 21st century) the strip has gotten pretty stale, telling the same jokes over and over. But the last few months I've been reading it have been pretty funny. I think the failing economy has given him some fresh material. EDIT: Arg, they seem to be missing random strips here and there. Oh well. EDIT 2: Ah, I see, they are missing the really old Sunday strips. ( I want you to hit me as hard as you can.)
Tuesday, July 21st, 2009
12:12 pm	Oh Wally, you never cease to inspire me ( I want you to hit me as hard as you can.)
Sunday, July 5th, 2009
10:17 pm	Books I have started but didn't finish (in the past 3ish years I think) Children of the Mind The 4th book in the Ender's Game series. Lost interest, even though I enjoy the story about Ender...need to re-read this, or maybe start back with Ender's Game because it's so awesome. Amazonia A book by one of the first employees at Amazon (something like employee #50). At first it was interesting, then got boring since he was an editor and not really into the tech side. Might go back and finish it. The Cheater's Guide to Baseball Sort of interesting, I got bogged down in the chapters on steroids. I would like to finish it. Although I enjoy the author's blogging work at USS Mariner, I didn't like his style in this long form as much, and there were enough grammar/punctuation/editing errors to annoy me. Pride and Prejudice and Zombies Was amusing enough at first, then just got boring. Maybe I'll finish it later. I'm not sure if Heart of Darkness counts since I only read the first 4 pages in the library with John and Wendy and kept falling asleep. But I would like to read this one eventually. I think that's it, at least recently. I kind of hate this habit I have of starting books and not finishing them. (1 bruise | I want you to hit me as hard as you can.)
Monday, June 29th, 2009
11:05 am	Lyrics Almost anytime I hear a phone ring I think of this song now. ( Say Anything - Wow, I Can Get Sexual Too ) ( I want you to hit me as hard as you can.)
Wednesday, May 6th, 2009
12:31 am	Apparently not as tired of being fat as I thought I was About a week after I posted that last entry, I had already lost a couple of pounds. Now I have doubled back and am around 222-223 (I'm sure you all want to know exactly how much I weigh). I have a bad habit, in the afternoons at work. I will go down to the C-Store that's in our building and buy a king size bag of Peanut Butter M&Ms and a Rock Star Juiced. I do it so often the guy behind the counter has the glint of recognition in his eyes every time I come in. The thing is, I want to pass out when I finish both of them, so the Rock Star is pretty pointless. I did get into Verns league, so there has been some Ultimate...and honestly I was surprised that I wasn't getting completely p3wnd on defense. I was not playing lockdown D or anything, but I was getting by. I guess it's Verns. But anyway, this is like the most stereotypical LJ post ever, with pretty much nothing interesting, and just the lame details of my life. I hope you enjoyed it! (1 bruise | I want you to hit me as hard as you can.)
Wednesday, March 25th, 2009
9:32 pm	Being a book nazi, with a book that doesn't even have a movie (Snow Crash) I'm reading Snow Crash right now; I'm not enjoying it as much as I thought I would, but it's still good (268 pages after just 5 days, so it must be okay). But there's this stupid thing that's bugging me about it. A major part of the plot of Snow Crash is the Metaverse, basically a big online virtual world, kind of like Second Life, except with fewer giant penises walking around. And, you put on goggles and are basically there, as opposed to looking at the world through your monitor. Naturally, transmitting that much data to your computer and back takes a lot of bandwidth, but it sounds like most people in the future are on fiber connections, so they can handle it. But whenever someone goggles into the Metaverse on a slow, public connection, their avatar shows up in grainy black and white. Makes sense: the connection is slower so their computer can't transmit a nice crisp image of them. BUT, the descriptions of what these people see themselves while in the Metaverse are just as detailed and intricate. Which is totally wrong. If you're jacked into this place from a slow connection, you're going to see everyone else in grainy black and white, just like they see you in grainy black and white. Anyway, it bugged me. Especially when the book was describing one character seeing an intricate water drop refracting light while goggled in from a public pay-as-you-go terminal at a truck stop. Still a good book, although this little detail has taken some of the fun out of it for me. Just like when the elves showed up at Helm's Deep in the movie version of The Two Towers. There was exactly one elf at Helm's Deep: Legolas. (3 bruises | I want you to hit me as hard as you can.)
Sunday, March 22nd, 2009
1:10 pm	Tired of being fat I weighed myself this morning and I was right at 220, which is the heaviest I've ever been in my life. This is not a surprise, since I haven't done anything athletic (other than a short sprint to catch a bus every now and then) since November, and my eating habits have actually gotten slightly worse. So, today I went for a run. Not a long run, only 1.5 miles, but it felt good to be able to keep up a jogging pace the whole way. I didn't time it, but I was probably on about a 9 minute mile pace. I could feel my fat jiggling, which is not a pleasant feeling. I'm going to try to cut out the stupid things that I know I don't even need that much - candy, ice cream, soda, energy drinks. One of my problems is that I eat my way through stress and depression. Review season at work required several pints of Ben & Jerry's (yes, I know I am pathetic). And there was that 40oz bag of Reese's Miniature cups (at least I didn't eat it all at once). Anyway, I'm a little depressed that it's Cadbury egg season, but I'll power through somehow. For caffeine, I'm going to try to stick to the free stuff at work (coffee and tea). As for regular meals, I would say I will try to stick to more sensible portions, but one thing at a time here. As for exercise, I will eventually get back into Ultimate. I tossed a bit at RH practice last Friday and was disappointed at how bad my throws were - guess that happens when you don't touch a disc for 4 months, sucker! I was hoping Vern's would be my "ease back into it" time, but since I didn't make the lottery, I will perhaps look for some pickup before summer starts. For summer, eh, we'll see what happens. ( I want you to hit me as hard as you can.)
Tuesday, February 24th, 2009
1:14 pm	More inspiration from Wally s/watched TV/bummed around the internet/ ( I want you to hit me as hard as you can.)
Wednesday, January 28th, 2009
12:15 pm	I draw inspiration from Wally on a daily basis This happens to me a lot. ( I want you to hit me as hard as you can.)
Tuesday, January 13th, 2009
3:17 pm	FAIL Except that when they called, I had to confirm my order number, name, email address, and full billing address. Whoops! (8 bruises | I want you to hit me as hard as you can.)
Friday, December 19th, 2008
12:24 am	Lightning and thunder Last night, I'm pretty sure a lightning bolt struck very near my apartment, or at least closer than I've ever been to lightning. The thunderclap was so loud I jumped out of bed and ran out the front door (still half asleep), looking around to see what had blown up. All the car alarms on the street were going off, adding to my general confusion. It happened one more time before I crawled back into bed, and while I didn't see the bolt directly, I saw the windows light up out of the corner of my eye. There was almost no delay between the lightning and the thunder, and it seemed like the clap lasted for five seconds, and it was deafening; I can't remember hearing anything that loud. I'm not ashamed to say that I was also really scared, probably because I was half asleep and wasn't sure if it was actually happening or not, and I kept imagining lightning striking my apartment directly and lighting it on fire. I went online looking for any neighborhood blogs mentioning it, and found this post on a Beacon Hill blog. So I guess it wasn't necessarily right by my apartment, but loud enough that many in my neighborhood had the same experience. ( I want you to hit me as hard as you can.)
Wednesday, December 17th, 2008
6:11 pm	Reqs, Specs, Design, etc. Note: This is cross-posted from my blog at work, edited for some Amazon-internal content Officially I got a bachelor of science in Software Engineering, although for all practical purposes at the time, it was the same as a CS degree except more limiting for graduate studies. Meaning that with a BS in CS you could easily do graduate studies in CS or SE, but with a BS in SE I think you'd probably have a hard time getting into some graduate CS programs, given the lack of theory requirements. Either one seemed to be fine for pursuing a job in industry. But anyway, the nominal purpose of a SE degree as opposed to a CS degree is to get more experience in the areas listed in the title of this post, as opposed to a straight curriculum of coding, coding, and more coding but in a different language. The idea was to get your feet wet in some industry techniques, and to be better positioned to jump right in to a job in the industry working on software projects (at least, that was my impression of it, you can read the RH CSSE curriculum descriptions here (CS) and here (SE)). Specifically, there were 6 core SE classes: 371 Software Requirement and Specification 372 Software Project Management 373 Formal Methods in Specification and Design 374 Software Architecture and Design 375 Software Construction and Evolution 376 Software Quality Assurance 371 and 372 were required for all CS and SE majors, while 373-376 were required for SE majors and were actually blacklisted for CS majors (with the justification that the CS majors should be more diversified in other areas of CS). So did the degree achieve its goal? I was in only the 3rd graduating class of the SE program, so it's fair to say it was still in its infancy. I think 371 was valuable and gave a good insight into some of the basics of gathering requirements and writing specs. I barely remember 372, other than the giant book, and generating Gant charts. 373 was, in my opinion, completely useless unless you were going into research on formal specification methods. I also barely remember 374. 375 and 376 were my favorites out the 6, because they both involved hands-on software work in the context of the subjects being learned. The other 4 classes involved no actual coding, just writing docs and the like. From talking to some professors after I graduated, I think they are trying to take this approach with all of the courses now, which I think is a good thing, although I'm sure it's challenging to fit in all of the same content and add programming at the same time. So where am I going with this? I'm supposed to be working on the design piece of a pretty big refactoring/migration project that my team will be embarking on next year. It's a great project, something I've been wanting to do since about 3 months into my Amazon career. We could never get the project resourced on my old team, but when my current team was formed the project was given priority. So why can't I get my brain engaged on it? I've been working on it for most of December and have very little to show--I need to have something for our external dependencies (both ways) to look at pretty soon, and it's pretty far away from being in that state. I show up at work and I just don't want to work on it. Notably, this is the first large piece of non-coding, planning/designing work I've been tasked with at Amazon, and these skills are key to moving up the SDE job ladder. This is the kind of stuff I got an SE degree for, and I can't seem to get excited about it, or even apply myself marginally well to it. And here is where my stream of consciousness seems to run out. I'll get back to you when I figure it out, or just trudge through it. ( I want you to hit me as hard as you can.)
Monday, December 15th, 2008
12:57 pm	What to name the new kitty I am getting a new kitten over Christmas break, and although she has tentatively been named Harriet by my 6 year old niece, I'm thinking she needs a better name. She will only be 8 weeks old when I get her, so I don't think a new name should be too traumatic. Originally I wanted to name Clementine Marla (from Fight Club), but Natalie shot that one down, and I think Clementine turned out to be a better name anyway. Marla seemed like a good idea but really it's just a lame name for a cat. I have been mulling over Sasha, probably because I just finished Dylan's book in which there is a panther named Sasha (who is also black just like the new kitty). Other than that I don't have any bright ideas. I feel like all of my friends (from college and in Seattle) have way cool names for their cats and I'm jealous. Like Ben Ciavola's cats are named Navier and Stokes, after an equation that is important in some kind of engineering thing (I'm not a real engineer so I don't know anything about it). I suppose I could name her after something cool from Computer Science. Oooh, or after a character from Star Wars (Mara after Mara Jade?)...hmmm...the possibilities are endless. Throw in your contribution if you feel like it! EDIT: Aha, paydirt. (2 bruises | I want you to hit me as hard as you can.)
Monday, December 8th, 2008
5:28 pm	Tournaments I have been thinking about doing this for a while and kept putting it off. A list of all the tournaments I attended this year, with the format, location, and the team I was with for each. January Hangover - 1 day coed with SotB (Redmond) Trouble in Vegas - 2 day coed with Tsunami (Las Vegas, duh) March Slog in the Bog - 1 day coed with SotB (Burlington) April Udder Bowl - 2 day coed with SotB (Nanaimo, BC, Canadia) June Flowerbowl - 2 day open with Downpour; although we were still Seattle 3rd Team at the time (Vancouver, BC) Solstice - 2 day open with Downpour (Eugene, OR) July Potlatch - 3 day coed with SotB (Redmond) Babes 'n' Hats - 2 day coed hat (Vancouver, BC) August Kleinman - 2 day coed with Insult; they are from Spokane/Coeur d'Alene and I was a random pickup (Portland) Spawnfest - split - 3 games with Downpour on Saturday, then 2 more games on Saturday with SotB, and 2 games Sunday with SotB (Burlington) September WA/BC Open Sectionals - 2 day open with Downpour (Burlington) (I only played 3 games due to ankle injury) October NW Open Regionals - 2 day open with Downpour (Burlington) Hanford Howl - 2 day coed with BabeWatch aka GST; again I was a last-minute pickup (Tri-Cities, WA) November Turkey Bowl - 1 day coed hat (Redmond) That's a lot of ultimate. Then of course add in all team league games, and Verns in the spring. (2 bruises | I want you to hit me as hard as you can.)
Sunday, November 9th, 2008
6:07 pm	My reaction to the election (finding my political identity) So ostensibly I'm a Libertarian and don't really like either of the major parties. But during the election I found that my Republican roots are not easy to shake, so I'm writing this in an attempt to be honest with myself and others. I watched McCain's concession speech, while I did not watch Obama's acceptance speech. I felt a little jolt of pride when I saw Idaho go red on the election map. I also voted for several local Republicans, given only two choices in the general election (due to Washington's top-2 primary). So in reality I guess you could say I'm a GOP-leaning libertarian (see my "Political Views" on Facebook, which pretty much confirms this). The obvious reason for these leanings is that some things the GOP claims to support (less government, fiscal conservatism) are things I agree with. Also, of course, growing up in Idaho. I need to realize that the GOP really doesn't follow these principles any more, at least at the federal level. Was GWB a fiscal conservative while in office? Cutting taxes without cutting spending does not a fiscal conservative make. Would McCain have been any better than Obama in this respect? Doubtful. At the same time, Obama probably stands a better chance of actually getting us out of Iraq. Will it actually happen? We'll see...but the chances are better. So, in the end, I should have been grudgingly happy that Obama won, instead of grudgingly disappointed that McCain lost. Would I be just as scared if the GOP had a majority in both houses and controlled the White House? My gut reaction would probably be less fear. But after considering the kind of social policy that might get passed given that kind of control, it's just as scary as the current Dem control. This election has made me realize that if all I do is talk about politics and vote, I'm pretty much going to be pissed off every 2 to 4 years, because probably nothing's going to change. Should I take a more active role and be a libertarian political activist? Nothing would probably still change, but at least I could feel better about myself. ( I want you to hit me as hard as you can.)
Friday, November 7th, 2008
6:00 pm	The power of teh intarwebs (help me help a blogging friend) One of the websites I read daily is USS Mariner, a great blog about the Mariners. One of the authors, Dave Cameron, wrote a blog post last year entitled An Open Letter To Rafael Chaves (Rafael Chaves was the Mariners' pitching coach at the time). The text of the blog regarded the pitch selection of Mariners starting pitcher and ace/phenom Felix Hernandez, how he threw too many predictable fastballs early in the game, and how that lead to opponents getting a lot of hits. The blog post itself might be pretty boring to non-Mariner fans or non-baseball fans, but the result of the post was epic. An unnamed fan in the stands handed a printed copy of the letter to Raffy Chaves, who gave it to Felix. In an interview with Geoff Baker (Seattle Times Mariners reporter), Felix acknowledged that reading the report actually influenced his pitch selection (in a game in which he gave up 2 hits over 8 innings). You can read about the aftermath in Baker's blog entry and USS Mariners' follow-up. The upshot is that the author of the post, currently pursuing an undergraduate degree in Economics, was nominated for a $10,000 Blogging Scholarship. You can vote for him here (Dave Cameron), which is what I'm about to do, and is what I'm encouraging you to do, if you find this story amazing. This was the first time I had ever heard of anything remotely close to this happening. That a couple of fans, with no official connection to the club, could have this kind of influence and visibility to an MLB coach and player...unbelievable. In addition, Dave puts up quality work on USS Mariner on a weekly basis about Sabermetrics, the importance of defense in the major leagues and how it is underrated by pretty much everyone, how evaluating pitching by ERA is STUPID, how smart managers build good teams on the cheap, etc. I highly recommend it if you are a Mariners fan or a baseball geek in general. I was given much more that $10K in scholarship money and gift aid in my years at Rose-Hulman, so I hope this amazing event can help out Dave with his college tuition. ( I want you to hit me as hard as you can.)
Wednesday, November 5th, 2008
3:21 pm	appropriate lyrics for today ( The Who - Won't Get Fooled Again ) ( I want you to hit me as hard as you can.)